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Friday, October 21, 2016

Pay Bills & Die? No Thanks!

I have decided that this illustration perfectly captures how I feel about life right now. Or rather how I'm seeing the world for myself. I have often found myself stressed or worried about where I am on the career spectrum of my life every now and then "I thought I'd be at this point by now.." "Maybe I don't make enough money" "Maybe I should go back to an office but then I'd lose the freedom and time I have with my children". Endless internal discussions with myself about career and handful of other things.

But here's the thing...what if the big picture in life is not centered on career but rather experiences??The job foots the bill for the love of everything else in life; travel & adventure.  I've never been a huge 'career focused' person. I'm happy to have one.I work. I do my job. But I don't think about it all of the time. It's not my driving force. It's about what I want to look back on when I'm older. I'm the type of person who is multi-passionate about things. I could probably be happy doing a handful of different occupations...but at the core of that all is that I want my life to be exciting. Full of adventure. Travel. Trips. Memories!!!! (and yes...I know life can't always be exciting...)

I understand that this is not how everyone feels or views the world. But RIGHT NOW I am sitting here at my desk looking out my window at changing leaves, gorgeous color unfolding before my eyes. I've been outside hiking and sitting around fires as often as possible. I love planning little adventures for my family and that FILLS my soul like a job will never be able to do. We aren't meant to pay bills and die. We are meant to live this life we have been given the best way we know how....and when I'm old and sitting in a rocker I want that peace of knowing that DAMN...I lived...and it was AWESOME!

Monday, October 10, 2016

Welcome Fall!

I don't know if there is anything quite as inspiring as Autumn. Something about the cooling of the air, the colors among the trees, the energy that comes from escaping the humid heat of summer.

I'm already lit up in a way that I find hard to describe just based on temperature alone. We haven't even gotten to the changing of leaves. I won't be able to handle it. Last weekend we escaped back to Chicago and I received my first taste of the crispness. I can't tell you the joy that I felt wearing jeans and a jacket and actually NEEDING them. In Georgia, we tend to force ourselves into Fall clothes even when the temp will hit 80 that day.  Gloomy skies make Fall colors come to life and make me feel extra cozy.

Being back in the city I realized that I'm equally at home walking city streets as I am hiking the trails of North Georgia. It's the middle/gray area where I struggle the most (i.e..suburbia).

I hadn't been back in what felt like forever. The last time I walked the streets of Chicago Piper was so tiny. My head was fuzzy from newborn life still and general lack of sleep. This time I was clear headed and the energy lit me up. That feeling. The feeling of belonging. Of comfort. It felt so good and I felt so alive. I was starting to lose hope for Georgia...but then....this morning we woke up to 48 degrees which is HUGE for Atlanta...let me tell you. Windows were immediately thrown open, candles lit, diffusers replenished and Bob Dylan blazing on my speakers. I took my Berner to the woods after all the kids were tucked into school because I knew that she would relish in the feeling of that breeze just as much as I would. We ran. We walked. We stood still. We breathed in fresh air and the possibilities that come with Fall. She ran through the tall grass and was practically galloping.

And that feeling was felt. Here. Of comfort. Of belonging. It's so confusing to me...that you can feel all the feels in two very different places at once. So I am choosing to settle into this season for now. To just be. To be okay with my confusion and take life one glorious fall day at a time.

Welcome back old friend! Here is to an inspiring season of hope, love and newness.