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Thursday, April 28, 2016

Because Mr. Rogers said so....


Leave it to Mr. Rogers to deliver me the parenting advice that I needed. Just when I was teetering on the edge of ridiculousness the man with the loving smile and stellar cardigan collection grounded me and reminded me what childhood is all about. What I LOVED about childhood.

We tend to know the answers to things and yet push aside that simple knowledge (i.e..children are meant to play) with what other voices have allowed to creep into our minds (i.e. My kid needs to be focused, ever attentive and positively crushing it in sports/school/life/etc..).That would be the more unrealistic of the two.

I've written this post about 3 different ways and each time I reread what I've written I want to give myself a little smack across the hand with a ruler.

Let me back up. It seems to me that childhood has changed. No, it doesn't seem....it has! At least the parenting side of things. I read once that parents used to 'raise' their kids but now we 'parent' them. Many Moms run their kids' lives like a small business. Scheduling them up in activities to help them find their passion and be put on the road to success. Researching the right school with spreadsheets and interviews to assure that this child is taught well. I'll admit. I've totally caught myself in a couple of these situations. Naturally, I look around me. I see kids who are in soccer/lacrosse/after school enrichment programs/lego builder clubs/chess club. (I should note the child I'm referring to here is SIX). I can't help but think "Am I missing something? Is my child missing out? Did I not read that parenting book!?"

Tuesday, April 26, 2016

Because I Must.

"Do what nature demands. Get a move on--if you have it in you-- and don't worry whether anyone will give you credit for it. And don't go expecting Plato's Republic; be satisfied with even the smallest progress, and treat the outcome of it all as unimportant" - Marcus Aurelius

This is my blog reboot! I let go of something that I enjoyed because of fear. Fear of not knowing why I was doing this in the first place. Fear of it not becoming 'something'. Fear of not having direction. Fear of being judged for my thoughts. Fear of upsetting people. Fear of thinking I'm not good enough. Fear of not thinking I have anything worth sharing. Just good ol' fashion fear.

But something is happening within me. A realization that I am the only one who can control or get rid of my own fear. The realization that in order for me to be truly and deeply happy I must honor what my soul longs for. As the beautiful quote above illustrates, I mustn't do something with the end game in mind. I must do something because that is what the universe wants and needs me to do.

I need to fill my soul by sharing stories and thoughts. I need to find different ways to express my creativity before my soul goes dark. I need it in order to have the light and love to give to my family. I need it so that my children will look back and read my words one day.

So I'm rebooting. I'm just writing words. Seeking the light. Looking for inspiration. Truth telling. Being me. Seeking to tap into that childlike curiosity for life. I don't offer promises of frequent posting or life alterning DIY's. I just offer myself. And that has to be enough.