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Monday, July 25, 2016

MORE


MORE...

More staying still...

More snuggly mornings at home with hot coffee

More saying no to things

More time with friends

More looking at faces instead of screens

More self motivation

More kindness towards one self

More lifting others up

More dream catchers

More hikes and time in the woods

More yoga

More nothing....because sometimes nothing is nice

More random acts of kindness

More LOVE

More music

More savoring of small things; a clean house, a delicious cup of coffee,etc..

More gratefulness

MORE of the good & simple.

Wednesday, May 18, 2016

DO DO DO!!!!


I must have scribbled this quote on the back of my planner a long time ago and completely forgot about it. I came across it this morning looking for an address which I have yet to find. But since I like to look for meaning in everything I feel that the universe made sure that I noticed it today.

I've spent hours (probably months/years) of my life thinking about and making lists of goals for myself. I am SO GOOD at making goals/plans/lists/etc...I am a big picture thinker, idea generator....we'll get into personality types one day but this is SPOT on for me. What I fail miserably at is the follow through.

Monday, May 9, 2016

More of this.....

We held hands and jumped from rock to rock. Taking a moment in between jumps to stop and think what our best next move should be. We landed on a large rock next to the rushing water in the middle of the river and took a moment. Both of us kneeled down and placed our hands in the water feeling how powerful it felt moving along almost sweeping us away if it could. Cold. Refreshing. Majestic. It  was just me and my boy enjoying this free gift that Mother Nature has given us all.

The fact that we shared this moment on Mother's Day made it all the more special. It also solidified in my heart that burning desire to share these moments and experiences with my children and husband. I happily posted the hashtag #experiencesnotthings on Instagram and meant it with every fiber of my being. The things I 'want' can be found in the aisles of REI because it is in nature where I want to spend my time. I'm okay with that investment.

Tuesday, May 3, 2016

Not This....by Elizabeth Gilbert

                        Elizabeth Gilbert's photo.
I have been so inspired by so many authors over the last year. Shauna Niequist, Jen Hatmaker, Tsh Oxenreider, Cheryl Strayed, Brene Brown and Elizabeth Gilbert to name a few. The books I have read have really touched me in both little and big ways. Dare I say that some have even changed me? The words have lead me to moments of clarity and realization about myself. They've helped confirm things about myself I already knew.  Elizabeth Gilbert (author of "Eat, Pray, Love") is one of those authors. I'm reading (again) her book "Big Magic: Creative Living Beyond Fear". Below is a post that she shared on Facebook recently.

I'm not one for just copying what someone else has written but this is powerful. I need this post to live somewhere permanent so that I can read it again and again. The two words that keep creeping into my mind are "And Yet..." and that has really given me something to work with. Perhaps you will find something in here that speaks to you as well..... ENJOY. XO

Thursday, April 28, 2016

Because Mr. Rogers said so....


"PLAY IS OFTEN TALKED ABOUT AS IF IT WERE A RELIEF FROM SERIOUS LEARNING. BUT FOR CHILDREN PLAY IS SERIOUS LEARNING. PLAY IS REALLY THE WORK OF CHILDHOOD." - FRED ROGERS

Leave it to Mr. Rogers to deliver me the parenting advice that I needed. Just when I was teetering on the edge of ridiculousness the man with the loving smile and stellar cardigan collection grounded me and reminded me what childhood is all about. What I LOVED about childhood.

We tend to know the answers to things and yet push aside that simple knowledge (i.e..children are meant to play) with what other voices have allowed to creep into our minds (i.e. My kid needs to be focused, ever attentive and positively crushing it in sports/school/life/etc..).That would be the more unrealistic of the two.

I've written this post about 3 different ways and each time I reread what I've written I want to give myself a little smack across the hand with a ruler.

Let me back up. It seems to me that childhood has changed. No, it doesn't seem....it has! At least the parenting side of things. I read once that parents used to 'raise' their kids but now we 'parent' them. Many Moms run their kids' lives like a small business. Scheduling them up in activities to help them find their passion and be put on the road to success. Researching the right school with spreadsheets and interviews to assure that this child is taught well. I'll admit. I've totally caught myself in a couple of these situations. Naturally, I look around me. I see kids who are in soccer/lacrosse/after school enrichment programs/lego builder clubs/chess club. (I should note the child I'm referring to here is SIX). I can't help but think "Am I missing something? Is my child missing out? Did I not read that parenting book!?"

Tuesday, April 26, 2016

Because I Must.

"Do what nature demands. Get a move on--if you have it in you-- and don't worry whether anyone will give you credit for it. And don't go expecting Plato's Republic; be satisfied with even the smallest progress, and treat the outcome of it all as unimportant" - Marcus Aurelius

This is my blog reboot! I let go of something that I enjoyed because of fear. Fear of not knowing why I was doing this in the first place. Fear of it not becoming 'something'. Fear of not having direction. Fear of being judged for my thoughts. Fear of upsetting people. Fear of thinking I'm not good enough. Fear of not thinking I have anything worth sharing. Just good ol' fashion fear.

But something is happening within me. A realization that I am the only one who can control or get rid of my own fear. The realization that in order for me to be truly and deeply happy I must honor what my soul longs for. As the beautiful quote above illustrates, I mustn't do something with the end game in mind. I must do something because that is what the universe wants and needs me to do.

I need to fill my soul by sharing stories and thoughts. I need to find different ways to express my creativity before my soul goes dark. I need it in order to have the light and love to give to my family. I need it so that my children will look back and read my words one day.

So I'm rebooting. I'm just writing words. Seeking the light. Looking for inspiration. Truth telling. Being me. Seeking to tap into that childlike curiosity for life. I don't offer promises of frequent posting or life alterning DIY's. I just offer myself. And that has to be enough.


Tuesday, October 13, 2015

The Time Has Come...

I had nothing to write this morning. And then I read this and wanted to share it. I know that for me (and many many others) we are our own worst critic.

"My beloved child, break your heart no longer.
Each time you judge yourself, you break your own heart.
You stop feeding on the love, which is the wellspring of your vitality.
The time has come. Your time. To live. To celebrate,
and to see the goodness that you are…
Do not fight the dark. Just turn on the light.
Let go, and breathe into the goodness that you are..." Swami Kripalu



If we allow ourselves to we can pick apart everything that we are doing in life...and how we're doing it wrong. But what about the things we're doing right? I'm far from even touching perfect. I feel failure all too often for teeny tiny little things that maybe I'm not doing right. I gave the baby a Poptart for lunch instead of steamed veggies full of nutrients. Many days I feel like I am incapable of keeping my house in order; clean, organized,etc...

I let the big boy watch TV instead of coming up with some nifty Pinterest-worthy Halloween craft or project because I was just mentally wiped out. I dipped my hands into that beloved bag of Halloween candy at 9pm because the Reese's Peanut Butter Cups were literally calling my name. My willpower shattered. I waited to order the baby's Halloween costume and now it's out of stock...way to go Me! 

I chose to come home and read instead of taking a hike. I haven't been to yoga in over a week. I blew my budget because I made the mistake of going to Target (and we all know the power that Target can have on you right?) I mean, I could come up with a million little things that make me feel bad about myself.

 Maybe you're reading this and thinking.."Um, no big deal dude...it's a peanut butter cup!" And what's worst is I KNOW. We all have days. The above mentioned things make me so annoyed at myself it's not even funny. That girl is so annoying.  Or maybe you're reading this thinking "Amen. Let's stop this nonsense" because you too judge yourself harshly. We have moments. I can choose to not judge others and yet I still judge myself so hard. I wouldn't treat a friend that way so why do it to myself? If I'm going to judge myself I should make it about big things. 

And so that's where I was this morning....and then I read this and it made me feel better. Made me question my judginess (is that a word?).  I want to turn on the light and not break my own heart, for the love of all the Peanut Butter cups in the world! 
XO